Sackcloth and Ashes
Simple font, simple writing. Today marks the sixth day of a 7-Day Cleansing Diet found on Pinterest. The reason I am writing this minute is to boost a last bit of resolve to hang in there. I’m about ready to throw in the towel. But no, I won’t. I’ll pray through it. In fact, that’s the point. Oh, now I remember why it has been so difficult today… just a small mimic of Christ’s desert experience. It has been such a lousy Monday. I’ve felt that praying would prove futile.
So let’s back up. Everyone wants to know. How does it work? Why did you do it?
Day 1: All fruits, except bananas. Water: 10 glasses.
Day 2: All veggies. One baked potato in the morning with a pat of butter. (for carbs)
Day 3: Fruits & Veggies Water: Always 10 glasses.
Day 4: Bananas & Milk. I was allowed up to 8 bananas. (I made it to 4 and drank almond milk instead of cow) Today’s nutritional value was for potassium and protein.
Day 5: Lean beef (up to 20 oz.) and six tomatoes! Yea… wow, and another quart of water to flush uric acid.
Day 6: All the beef and veggies you want
Day 7: Brown rice, veggies and fruit juice
They promise a loss of 10-17 lbs and more. I figure whatever I lose is what I’m supposed to, and that’s enough. If I can keep it off-- all the better.
I’m more than ½ way there… that’s what I chant while I’m running and about out of gas.
The first day wasn’t too bad. My resolve, strong, I forced watermelon, cantaloupe, grapefruit, 2 apples, strawberries, blueberries…and something else, I can’t remember. Oh yea, pineapple. I woke up the next day, stepped on the scale, and dropped 3 NYC pounds. Yippee!
The second day was the hardest. A whole bag of veggies, I took to work, with no dressing. I felt like a rabbit, munching on shrubs. I will admit, the 2 organic sweet potatoes rocked with cinnamon!
The third day was good. I felt ok. I’d lost 4 lbs. I had trouble looking at desserts on Pinterest.
The fourth day wasn’t as bad as I thought although the diet peeps predicted that I’d be surprised at how easy it would feel. Sugar cravings would begin to diminish. I lost 2 more lbs.
Onto the 5th day…still no wine or alcohol…
Steak. I feasted on 10 oz. of Porterhouse that Rob grilled for me. Two tomatoes. I supplemented this with a veggie soup that is allowed on veggie days. I took a walk with Colleen at the dam. I came home and ate another 10 oz. slab and 3 tomatoes. I was done. I shouldn’t have eaten all that.
I woke up this morning with a terrific headache and held the weight loss. No more, no less. I felt a little beat up-- a little hung over from too much cattle. I didn’t eat 8 bananas, why did I think I had to finish off the steer?
Today I announced that I would do my own thing. I made a fruit shake (with a banana), Greek yogurt, and lots of spinach. I went to work, late, feeling crummy. My coffee, still a depressing black (no cream, no sugar)
At lunch we came home and ate leftover beef and veggie stir fry. No rice and just a few bites of beef, very few.
I felt unworthy—my prayers, useless. I’m not a good person. Why do I try?
I berate myself, “It’s not any good if all you’re doing it for is to lose weight. That’s kinda selfish, don’t ya think? Have a cookie. You’re weak. And after all this is over, you’ll gain it all back. You lack self- control.”
I slept in the car while Beth attended her piano lesson. Opened my eyes and read my Catholic devotional and realized what was going on.
I chugged a bottle of water.
I decided to take it easy—cut myself some slack. It’s just a low day. Everyone has them.
The serpent can whisper in my ear, all he wants.
Dinner remains to be seen. I will eat my cabbage soup and a little beef stir fry. I’ll drink my water and be happy that it’s clean, that it runs out of a faucet, with the flip of a wrist. I don’t have to haul it on my head from miles away. I’ll say a prayer for babies in Haiti.
I’ll remind myself that I needed a jumpstart on Lent. I wanted a kick off for losing a few pounds. I accomplished that.
The rest, well, we’ll see.
After all, this is a walk of grace and faith.
God Bless you all…oysters and pearls.